it's half past 2 in the morning, and i m still awake, maybe im experiencing some chemical imbalance .......or hormone imbalance which leads to emotional imbalance as well!!! hahaha....
if my blog is a totally free world, i would love to write everything i wish, but there is no such thing in this entire universe that has no limit at all. Flexibility, YES, but total freedom is unlikely what you will get in this world....
i think too much, that is my problem. I wish one day i could just wake up from bed and live the life without so much consideration to take place. I really wish for that. Huh?
after put some thought on the prejudice game, recently i realised, there is another syndrome as huge as the prejudice game. It is the popularity game, a syndrome to be well-known, which might lead to perfection or a mere hypocrisy. Would love to elaborate more on this as well some other time, i'm not well conversed, intellectually in these two 'games' , what ever i write, merely my personal comments.... don;t take them seriouslyt. It;s just to keep myself well thought.
till we meet again....XOXO hahaha
after midnight.....
interrogation (laaa sangatt)
this happened few days back.....
someone asked me with a very 'tantalizing' question, i guess. He kinda asked me to share some bits of what i did mostly when i was in London. Nothing much i could say, except i worked terribly hard. Hahaha, sounds not real? yeahhh you bet, it is real.... but i worked as much as i explored the entire city. Huh, how that sounds?
after several questions, he jumped into this 'tantalizing' matter. He wanted to know whether i enjoyed my night life there? I was like, fuh honestly my night in london mostly i spent working as well, i answered without any sense tht he was actually kinda interrogating me if i used to go clubbing or hanging out in pubs..... i immediately said NO, (i went there occasionally to meet up some colleagues) but yeah literally to 'club' or having this social 'drink'? NO.
he was like blinking his eyes few times, as he might thought i am traditional-malay sort of guy. Owh, might be true cause to some extend, even when i was in L, i terribly craved for nasik lemak and roti canai. (MEREPEK!!!) He did mentioned i wasted those opportunities..... hmm
im not saying im pious, certainly not, (maybe some day... heheh), but at some points i don't believe tht i have those sort of flexibility to breach some lines. It is just not me. Don't ask me why cause things might change soon. Perhaps not.
ok......htg now.... will keep updating, still depends on what i encounter these coming days.....
prejudice game???
too much prejudice towards other group of people should not exist any longer at this age. i know i have mentioned about this many times already in this blog. But i encounter this issue almost every day. I listen, I see, I read all about this mentality as if their breed are the most perfect human kind on earth, not others..... what only matters is their own opinion. Anything else conflicting with it or with their own interest, they perceived as total bluff.
But i see it as they are all in disguise of their own inferiority.
I have no problem with arguments, but i cannot handle denial and ignorance.
when you have too much in mind....
pernahkah kita terpanggil untuk merencanakan sesuatu, padahal kudrat zahirnya seakan tidak akan kesampaian. Namun kerana iltizam yg teguh itu kita harungi jua kerana matlmat yang satu itu juga yg hendak kita capai. Itu lah yang aku sedang lalui mungkin. Pelbagai rencana, namun khuatir juga segalanya tidak akan menjadi. Paling takut bila asyik terngiang-ngiangkan bidalan ini, 'Yang di kejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran'.
opps.....
someone been trying so hard to talk to me, but due to uncertainties, i ignored all the phone calls. Sometimes when you trying to engage with something, mere sweet talks arent suffice. Not to ask you to try harder but it might be my own conflict. It's either you stop trying or perhaps dont put any hopes at all.
yep, most of the time, good things come when we least expect them to be. So, let me be in my own surreal world. Period.
